7 Days

I keep counting down the days, and the minutes.
But I am honestly still shocked this is happening at all.
I get to become a Gilmore.
These passing months have seemed like a dream, a daze.
A really planned/stressful daze.
And now it's all coming together. I didn't think it would change the way I felt at all.
Because I was going to be with you, regardless if we were married.
If we didn't get married, I still just planned to date you.

But the closer the days get, I can feel it.
It's so strong, but it's quite, soft, constant, and close..
It's hard to put into words because there are so many feelings that don't come with words.
But I guess sometimes, that's what makes it special.
You only understand if you have felt it.
Like motherhood.

I get to create my own little world with you.
I get to experience everything I am going to experience with the very best friend I have.

Which, if you think about it, I have been doing since I met you.
But taking on your last name, makes me realize..
I get to become part of the most amazing family.
(I am not just saying this to get brownie points from family members either.
I would look up to your family regardless of me getting to become a part of it or not. )

Every Gilmore is so strong, and passionate.
Every Gilmore mother and sister is everything I could ever hope to be.
Every Gilmore father and brother is everything I could ever hope to have.
Smart, dedicated, intelligent, accepting, caring, hilarious, and always progressing.

When I think of your family, it's hard for me not to tear up, because maybe, some day, if I become a mother, our kids will have those same traits that I admire so much.
I have become so close with your family.
And that means so much to me.
I feel as if I am marrying into a pool of best friends.
And I want to thank you for giving me that opportunity.

You, my best friend.
It's so amazing to watch you grow and progress.
You have been a million different versions of yourself since we first met, and cannot wait to see everything else you will become.
You challenge me, almost daily, and in so many different ways.
Some, I appreciate, and others, although I don't appreciate them in the moment, they have made me grow into a very, very, very patient person.
You understand me so well, that I wouldn't even need to talk to you, if I didn't enjoy talking to you so much.
I have always felt like words have so much meaning, the only meaning until I met you.
You've taught me all the meanings of silence, and sound.
I can always understand how you feel by what your music sounds like.
It's a direct path to your brain, without the confusing muck of words and definitions.
And it's the most beautiful thing I've ever experienced.
I find it hard to share you with others sometimes, but I love to see you make an impact on how others perceive the world. And you bring so much laughter, and thoughtful discussion. I love that.
I laugh until I cannot breathe every day I am with you. Every day.
You have opened my mind in so many different ways and I am forever grateful for that.
You have made me a more spiritual, trusting, caring person.
You are always pushing my limits for progression.
You want me to be the best version I can be. And not only do I need that, but I respect that about you.
I cannot wait to see our progression with one another.

So, thank you.
Thank you for everything.